Firstly, i hope you all had a great new year! <3
My first post of 2011 right here! :)
over the holidays its been crap for me, i binged, and fasted alot.
ive lost more weight.
i wrote my councellor a 3 page letter saying how i feel and that i am discusting and fat.
i gave her it today during my review meeting.
Shes woried about my mental state (ive cut and tryed taking an overdose).
shes ringing me tomorrow morning to 'check up on me'.
i have to see a phyciatrist and her again before monday and she said its likley that i will be going into hospital.
i dont really know what to do, i want to go into hospital, so i can get better. i know i wont gain weight unless in forced. But im so scared of going back there! its horrile.
But i hope 2011 is the year i can get better.
Posotive Note - My new pointe shoes have been made and posted! they should be here soon! <3
But... i doubt theyll let me dance in hospital :(
Love you all